Redemption

Today as the kids and I drove downtown to meet Brian for lunch we passed clean up crews clearing debris from our latest wind storm.  We were rerouted down a side street as a crew was removing a large downed tree.

Immediately after turning right I had a flashback.  The last time I had driven down this exact side road I was on my way to work downtown.  I was driving the Jeep we had at that time, top down, wind in my face, when my cell phone rang.  The call was from our infertility specialist.  I pulled over onto the same side street to take the call.

The doctor had called to tell me biological kids were most likely not in our future.  The latest test results were in and we needed to probably explore other options.  I remember it was a gorgeous day and I had only moments before been soaking up the morning sun, while driving along the river to my work.  I felt completely crushed and distraught.

I giggled to myself today as I drove past the exact same spot for the first time since that day.  Only today I drove through in my big ol' momma SUV loaded with all three of our kids.  I no longer work downtown, I am a mother.  Kids we thought we might never have are now my full time job.

No more sadness on that road.  Today I felt redeemed.  Eight years later and we're a family of five.  Life is good.